When you think about your life and where you are headed, are you driven towards a particular goal? multiple? none? where are you headed with your life?

These past few months my life has been overflowing with passion, determination, and a drive for life that I thought I had lost.  Looking within myself and searching my soul is more demanding than I ever imagined, yet one of the most rewarding times of my life.  I have discovered many different paths that I want to take, but which do I take?

I am young and refuse to limit my opportunities in life.  I want a career change, location change, physical/fitness change, relationship change, car change, house change….I want all the change and am willing to do whatever it takes to get where I personally want to be in life.

Change is something I believe many struggle with, which for me is hard to comprehend. Say you don’t like the situation you are…location, relationship, you weigh more than you’d like….anything….if you had the opportunity to change it, why wouldn’t you?

“Faced with the choice between changing one’s mind and proving that there is no need to do so, almost everyone gets busy on the proof.”

The quality of your life revolves around your desire to live, or how to live.  Everyone gets caught up in different situations, good and bad, but you will ultimately be responsible for your own life and how its plays out.

For  me, my ultimate goal in life is to be my true authentic self, in every possible situation.  Think back to some recent decisions you’ve made within your life.  Was the decision based on facts?  The right thing to do?  Significant others? Family? Friends?  Convince?

Allowing yourself to be your true authentic self requires a lot of soul searching.  I have a handful of people in my life that I hold close to my heart, I turn to, and respect ultimately. But I realized we all have our own opinions, dreams, and passions. While appreciating their opinions, I had to find for myself what is best for me.

Right now, I have no idea where my life is going, and some would say that is terrifying…but to me its terrifyingly beautiful.  What I can do with my life is limitless.

“Who are you? Answer; you are who you are in this given moment. Label-less. Limitless. Remember that from this day forward.”

what do you what to do with this life you were given?




open your eyes.

Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

What have you done today, this month, or even this year that is going to help create the best version of yourself?  Your ultimate image of who you desire to become.

For a long time, I did nothing.  I wouldn’t consider what I was doing even to be living.  My routined life was going to be the death of me.  I worked at the same job, ate the same foods at the same time, lived in the same place my entire life, had the same job, etc….I had accepted that this was going to be my life for the next 20-30 years.

But why?

I had dreams of experiencing new things, traveling, having different jobs, living a whole different life than what I was.  But it was only a dream, and nothing more.  At that point of time, I couldn’t fathom anything outside my structured, comfortable, expected life.

Well fuck. That sounds awful, doesn’t it?  I am 25 years old and I was already dead.  I had become a robot to my life…and the worse part about it was I was surrendering to it.

There finally came a point in my life where I realized that this isn’t what I wanted and that my dreams didn’t have to be dreams.  They could be my life and the only person stopping me, was me.

So, where do I go from here?  Honestly, after I realized all this, thats when the hard work started.  For most of my life, I was a people pleaser who was worried to upset the ones in my life.  I would put myself and my thoughts on the back burner.  I had to change my mind set on how I viewed myself and my life.

For months I had to search for myself.  who was i?  who did I want to become?  Where do I start?  

I wanted to surround myself with new like minded people, and thats where I joined my crossfit gym.  I changed my living situations.  I started applying to jobs all over the country in pursuits of my dream job.  I started creating the life I had always daydreamed about.

And now months later here I am.  I have had interviews all over the country for jobs I could only dream of.  I have plans to move across the country in the next few weeks.  I have traveled, for the first time, alone.  I have met positive and inspiring people along the way.  I have finally broke the pattern of my robot life.  The best part?  This is literally just the beginning.

I have never had so much passion about living.  I encourage you to get outside of your comfort zone because life has so much more to offer.  Honestly, I feel lucky to have realized this so young.  This is just my beginning and I can’t wait to see where it takes.

Don’t let yourself become dead before you die.




the broken.

Life offers many different experiences, positive and negative.  I have always been a strong believer that everything happens for a reason, even when life get shitty. But honestly, sometimes I need a reminder that everything does have a reason.

Looking back, is there an experience that would you change? 

For me on most days, I’d have to say no.  There is not one thing I would change only because I wouldn’t be the person I am today without all that I’ve endured.

This morning, someone said to me in conversation….

“we are dangerous.”

But what did he mean?   I was extremely captured and intrigued by what he said, that I had to understand what he meant.  He continues to say we are dangerous because of what our past holds.  We both have been through rough times, learned how to deal with them, and survived.  The fear of being uncomfortable doesn’t exist for us because at the end of the day, we know we will survive.

Well fuck, this couldn’t be more true. Going through all these extreme life changes has really opened my eyes to a whole new world, a new me.  Its exciting, scary, exhausting, thrilling….insert any and all adjectives.

“By changing nothing, nothing changes.”

Bring it on the change, bring on the crazy emotional roller coaster. Bring it all on because there is nothing I cannot overcome, and nothing will stop me from achieving what I set my mind to.

“Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”

Remember, what is coming is better than what is gone.



who do you live for?

As I book my flight, pack my bags, then board my flight….this question continues to run through my head.

who am i living for?

Has there been something in your life that you’ve always wanted to do?  Wether its a job, travel, relationships, anything….?  Have you pursued it?  If not, why haven’t you?  Honestly, what’s really stopping you? Is there something that truly stopping you?

The answer is most likely no.  There is absolutely nothing stopping you, besides your fear.  Fear in the unknown.  Fear of the uncertainties.  Fear of change.

My next question is…are you going to let fear stop you?

Over these past few weeks, Ive come to realize a lot of things.  People get comfortable, even if they aren’t happy.  They would much rather know they are going to be comfortable and unhappy, rather than live in the moment.  Not everyone possess the desire to change their life and fight for the life they dreamed of.

This being said, I am taking a leap in faith.  I have loved my life in Virginia.  I have my family, wonderful friends, good job, and a supportive Crossfit family.  Honestly, I believe that I have met my full potential in Virginia, but not in life.

“We can’t be afraid of change. You may feel very secure in the pond that you are in, but if you never venture out of it, you will never know that there is such a thing as an ocean, a sea. Holding onto something that is good for you now, may be the very reason why you don’t have something better.”

The progression of my life changes had several baby steps until I came to my big conclusion.

One of my first baby step I wanted to make in life was to join Crossfit.  I had been weightlifting for years, and was ready for a challenge, physically and mental.  The fear of the unknown easily stopped me.  What gym do I join? What am I doing? Am I going to fail? Am I going to make friends?  The questions were endless.

Luckily, I had one friend who pushed me.  He encouraged me that it would be life changing in many different aspects. I finally took the jump, took his advice, and went to the gym he recommended.

I was in love.  Fitness has always been a passion of mine.  I was so excited to surround myself with like-minded, driven individuals.  It has been 4 months at this gym and I couldn’t be happier.

With taking that baby step to join Crossfit, it has taught me several things.  It has showed me that taking a risk, jumping into the unknown, can provide overwhelming positive results.  Besides bettering my physical appearance, my confidence has increased, built new friendship, and developed more passion about life.  This right here showed me there is more to life than your comfort zones.

“We have to be honest about what we want and take risks rather than lie to ourselves and make excuses to stay in our comfort zone.”

Now, with taking that baby step,  I can confidently say I know what I want from life.  I don’t know where I will end up, but that’s the best part.  I have  decided that my next step in life is moving west coast. New job, new friendships, new experiences, new open doors.

“Vulnerability brings honesty. We become most honest with ourselves when we are faced with real fear around a situation or an outcome.”

2015 was a year of great change, in more ways than I ever imagined.  But I was able to learn one of the best life lessons: This is my life to live.  For me. No one else.  I am the one who has to live with my choices for the rest of my life.  I have decided not to settle and make those changes for myself.

now, who are you living for?






new beginnings.

“When you have expectations, you are setting yourself up for disappointment.”

Ever since I can remember, I have always had a plan in my head how I wanted my life to go. And for the overwhelming majority, things always seemed to work out for me.

But this past year was different from all the rest. I was 24, had a great job, and stability.

Was this this the life I had planned for myself? 

Honestly, maybe it was. This was my safe life, but I no longer wanted that safe perfectly planned life.

I have too much passion and determination to settle.  We truly do have one life to live, so why would I want the word settle even be an adjective to describe my life. Things had to change.

Easier said than done, of course.  I spent many months making little changes.  One little change, lead to another, which lead to even bigger changes.

I no longer want to live my life with set-up expectations.  The only expectation I am going to live by is to be true to myself.

“I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.”

Actually my senior quote and still my quote to live by.  I may have lost sight of who I was, my passion, my goals…..but I am back.  And nothing can stop me now.

This is my new beginning, that I am ready to share with the world.


Until next time.